Without Tears

Holding my head up high, was a lie
For I walked away, heaving a sigh
I felt within, that I'd surely then die
My heart broke deeply as I did cry
I hid my feeling, but yet once more
As my heart cried, it's sad implore
It cried with pity, not speaking out
Knew I'd be lonely, had no doubt
Feelings and emotion, hidden away
Always haunt and taunt many a day


As always, we leave this to the great healer, time. There exists a phobia, fear of showing up feelings, exposing the emotional self. Often emotion is associated by weakness, vulnerability of man, rather than a very natural human characteristic. Something’s in life strike without warning and a few due for long. It hurts when you feel weak, unable to control. You know nothing can be done and its time to let it go. It’s the time you say goodbye.

Fearless eyes hide the pain beneath,
And a raised head covers the void.
With a grace I stepped forward,
To say GOODBYE.
But then dumbstruck,
I stood like an idiot
Praying the moments never passes by.
Sill you stay somewhere near,
Calling me, but why?
And you said the moments will never pass by.

Lovely Arrangement

This time it’s not a dream, but a serious thought that came out of these dreams. I dream of love, god, religion, always trying to catch the ultimate. And these topics existed since the existence of intellectual man. The future always look down on past as old and out of fashion and past thinks of future as immature and impulsive. It is the present that holds the responsibility to bind the two. It knows that past may be out of energy but it certainly has the experience. They may look unimaginative and stubborn, but may be they have seen what we try. The future on the other hand, is like a budding flower, a chick just out of its shell. It feels the world around and likes to experiment. They have the energy and will.

I feel lucky enough to be born in an age that has seen a huge transformation in so little time. Both technologically and socially an era ended in half a decade. Never before there existed so many ideologies. The real world was wrapped beautifully in a well conceptualized virtual world. Here the power need not be shown but felt. Human desires felt the need of new meaning to present relations. Need and lust weighted over love and understanding.

When we see this world we mould ourselves according to the rules of evolution and existence. We define our rules that help us and our near ones to live better. These rules come through experience of society out of a very complex and complicated network of physical, emotional, social and philosophical needs. When the network around us tweak a bit, there comes a need for change in rules. This brings a shift in power from the old generation to the new one.

Its important to change with time, but to make sure we don’t reinvent the wheel, we need to learn from experience, the past. While we redefine something as fundamental as relations, we need to be very sure of its need and importance. How and why it evolved?

If asked about a relation as important as choosing a spouse. We get in a tangle of love v/s arranged. Arranged marriage evolved because love, often young, makes selection that tremble the foundations of society. They often don’t think of future and act on impulse. The stint of happiness is often mistaken for an everlasting, selfless pleasure of love. This results in bickering and discomfort ending the perfect world as soon as the spell is over. Arranged marriages constructed “LOVE” with understanding and dependence. But why ?

Well.. relations are different from love. Love acts only as a glue. It binds you together. The strength of your love determines the stress it can take, and once it crosses threshold the bond breaks. Infact the situation is pretty dangerous to society as it creates a resistance for further bindings and creates a void. This void often reflects to society in form of bitterness. Marriages in supervision of family and loved once help cultivate love. Relations teach us how to love. It not only binds but also hold the pieces together is moment of stress. The impetus of care slowly converts to divine love. Moreover it’s not necessary that you receive love from the same person you love. Such situations further complicate and create an environment where “LOVE BUSSINESS” booms.

It’s an old age saying: “Marry a person who loves you”. It’s fantabulous to get love from a person you love and also have a willing consent of family. But one should consider itself lucky if loved by someone, apart from our parents. It’s more important to have a spouse who loves you and care for you, rather than a spouse you love.

But talking of the “LOVELY ARRANGEMENT” a bond that is truly made in heaven would be to marry your love, who loves you as much, complimented by blessings of family and friends. A bond where your other half fills in the void rather than need to create that space

ANOTHER search for "THE TRUTH"

Hi Friends,

WELL.... It had been silence for long here. I was pretty much occupied.. not by work but by thoughts. Pulled deep in the webs that i have woven . And guess what!!! The answer once again was in my dreams... An impossible out of the world situation, where religious leaders and scholers all sat at one place, without quarelling and abusing anyone. They all listened to me and answered.
I was really very confused tensed and irritated as all my efforts to know religion and god seems to be going waste. It is then that I decided to ask these questions to a few scholars. High in the ranges of himalayas, there lied a desert where sun never sat. It was here i asked them the questions about the truth. Now with their help I have developed a theory that looks logical in defining GOD, Religion and evolution.

I will start with a story first....

Once there was a king who was desperately searching for the perfect religion and true God.
He invited all the scholars of the world and started off a debate. Even after 15 months he couldn’t be convinced. Then there came a person who told the king that he can show the king the perfect religion.... but only at the other end of the river which was in front of them. King happily ordered a boat, but the saint rejected the boat pointing to some imperfection. The king ordered another and this one was also rejected. king did everything possible to convince him but the saint was not ready. Finally the king ordered his men to forcefully put the saint in a boat and sailed towards the other end.

When they reached the other end the saint said to the king. "Religion is like a boat which helps us to cross the river called life. Most religions can help you cross this river, you can choose to swim, create your own boat but you have to cross the river.

Now here onwards all comments are what I can compile. It will be difficult to differentiate the comments by a single person because i dont know who said it.

Now on the question what is religion?? Why religion?? And how did religion evolved??

Man has walked on this earth for longer than before recorded history. Even the archaeologists know very little about the cultural beliefs and practices of early man. We assume that they had some sort of transcendent belief because of the manner in which they buried their dead.

It is not until the agricultural developments around 10,000 BCE that man begins to have a sense of cultural identity. As mankind started living in large groups, it is highly probable that the rudiments of what we, today, call "religion" began to formulate. This is not to say there weren't belief structures before societal man.

Man at a point of time was no better than an animal. All he could think of is survival, food and shelter. Clearly with no society in place there was no religion and no concept of God (animals donot have religious beliefs). As and when the evolution happened and man started living in groups. They started using that special weapon (BRAIN) that was way above the rest in vicinity. It all started with that special gift of (COMMUNICATION) that man became organized and started to socialize. Survival may have been the chief reason to it.

***One of the Acharyas (TEACHER) was very keen to know how did communication skill came to man. How did this evolved where he was convinced that it did not fall in the very important needs that can bring evolution. WE wondered that whether it was the power to imitate that brought this. Only a single spark , the first letter or first signal may have started the process but we wondered on what caused the first spark.***


Coming back to the topic. What created religion is really the Fear.
Man became powerful and greedy of more power. He started achieving impossible, they gathered more than what is required and had ample of time left. He feared every thing that couldn’t be explained by him. Even the most intellectual could not explain. They wanted answers for all that was there, unexplained, created, and all that happens beyond any observable force.

All factors like Lightning, Eclipse moving of object through magnetic fields was considered an act of GOD. Even the most enlightened who believe that each and every thing has an explanation, and every thing is governed by a law that cannot be broken or altered, felt good to have the image. The powerful became rulers and societies evolved. The rules were set and the need for some rules that cannot be broken or questioned arise. These rules, mostly did not have any direct effect and demanded a few restrains were designed to make the life easier. These set of rules turned into religion and every word of these rules believed to come from GOD.

On why so many religions?

The number of religions that existed on earth cannot be determined. Evolution of religions is not very different from reproductive system. The number of followers determined the popularity of a religion and hence its base. The set of rules and emotional as well as social satisfaction that a religion provided to its follower determined its popularity. Most religions raised and felled by the actions of its religious leader.

· So do we have a God?
This Question had a peculiarity that each answer started with something like this.

“ Yes, Undoubtedly there is a God. And I knew that this was going to come.”

I will pick few of the most convincing answers.

“If I abuse your father, would you be angry. Why? I only abused someone who is your father. It is the association that you make to that person whom you love. Why do you love him…?”

“ I said there is a god that governs all that happens, that know all that happened and who is responsible for all that will happen…. You don’t believe me ok who do you think he is….”

“GOD… If it does not exists what do you think the word means”

LETS CALL IT –“ MY DREAM PROJECT”

Warning: READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. THE AUTHOR TAKES NO RESPOSIBILITY FOR ANY OF HIS IDEA AND HAS NO EXPLANATIONS FOR IT.
WOW!!! How can I get into this. It would be so nice if somehow I get into it. Can I get invisible? Ah how powerful I would be if I can be invisible. First I will get rid of all those headless creatures around. They always bug me. Even if I can’t get invisible if I can just extend the limit of my mind so that I can read others or if I could just posses some extraordinary powers. WOW I can be a superman I can fly I can see through things. I have an X-ray vision. OH yes I need an x-ray vision you know after all its good for health. Even research has proved having an X-ray vision gives you half an hour of aerobics by just looking around in five minutes it would be wonderful if I can control an X-ray device through my brains I would also have a rocket propulsion unit and would replace all my bones with a super-powerful hydraulic unit. But I would require a lot of money and who would invest in this idea that would give them nothing. HEEHEE!!! May be I should write a blog and convince people to help me and sponsor me. A real diplomatic writing and let fools come in front. What would be the title “making world a better place” naaaaaaaaa then ok LETS CALL IT “ MY DREAM PROJECT”. This could attract some techy fools.

First of I am extremely sorry for you if you are reading this. And please make me understand some of my ideas as soon as you understand them. Why the title “My Dream Project” just because the idea of it came in my dreams. Seriously I am astonished by the power of the human brain. Undoubtedly it is the world’s most powerful processor is running only a single machine that’s individual bodies. No doubt a man utilizes only some 2-3% of his brain at max (may be even less). Please don’t rush to me to beat me up as this thought came, while I was deep in my dreams.
The thought was why not provide some auxiliary intelligent input output units to brain to utilize its processing power. An input unit which provides inputs to brain in a way none of our sensory organ gives, just for an example’s sake why not attach an antenna that tunes itself to a frequency range as instructed by the brain and captures the signal and passes it to brain. Just look at it, what a utility it can be, you can introspect your favorite television serials or the best of songs aired without having a television or radio. Put up a speaker and mic in classroom and you can attend the class while enjoying your sleep.
Really I feel this project has some very bright future prospects and it can drive the world crazy. Moreover I feel that’s possible what we need to find out or know is the interface in this brain which takes input from any other sensory organ and the form in which the information is carried out to hands or any other body part, and this should not be that difficult for our scientists to find out. And don’t worry about the dummy on which to test this idea. We can always experiment this on a lot of people around me of whom I think have no brains at all, or even if they have it is of no use. Seriously we should carry on with this project if not for the sake of me, for the sake of science, even if not for science for the sake of society as this can help us get rid of those brainless creatures of whom I wanted to get rid from the very beginning.
What am I talking, have I gone out of senses, no I think I am writing a blog, oh who the hell is knocking at my doors, oh no I have left my laptop at the lab, no don’t worry no one will take it. Have I switched it on? Press the submit button before u get up. Yes coming stop slamming the door. Oh shit damn you I forgot to edit the initial parts of my thought see these are the brainless creatures I was talking of !@#!@@#